What Hurts the Most - England (part 2)

WARNING: FEELS WILL HAPPEN, AND CRYING MAY OCCUR
YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED OF TEH FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELZ






It had been a month since then. Nothing had changed. You were still a mess of yourself and your eyes were practically grey now. Memories kept flooding your mind at everything now, getting dressed, waking up in the morning, everything. You imagined him wrapping those warm arms around your waist, pulling you into his chest, but when you turned around.. nothing.. nobody was there. Though.. some things were different now. You were now a shell. Showing no emotion and shedding no tears, for you had shed as many tears as you could. They just never came anymore. You looked at everything with a bored expression except one thing, the ring. Every time you looked down at your left hand, there it was, and every time you saw it, deeper into nothingness you went. You couldn’t take this anymore. A life without Arthur wasn’t worth living. He was your everything and you needed him to survive

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder waiting to snap. And that’s exactly what happened after a phone call you received
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret

Lately.. it was like…. You were a thread.  A thread being pulled very hard, ready to snap at any moment

“Excuse me ____ ____? We are so sorry… but if Arthur doesn’t wake up in a month or so… we’ll have to pull the plug.”

“W-W-What!? WHY?!”

“ He has been in a coma for about a year and a half now.. and at this point… I’m sorry to say that there is a 99% chance he wont ever wake up.” It felt like a dagger had stabbed you in the heart. The sentence you had been dreading to hear.

“ I-I… I understand.” You replied hanging your head. The line went dead and you put the phone down. Falling to your knees you just stared at the floor below you. Then…. Something…. The thread… just… snapped. Your pupils went small and a sickening grin crept onto your face. “If he wont come back to me.. I’ll just join him! We will be together once again!~ Arthur I am coming my dear~!” Insane laughter escaped your lips and you suddenly grabbed the pills from your cabinet and opened the cap. Pouring about 20 into your hand, you opened your mouth and raised your hand to it when suddenly the phone rang. You glared in the direction of the noise and stomped over to the phone. HOW DARE THEY KEEP ME FROM MY ARTHUR you thought. Picking up the phone you harshly said “What!?” there was a short pause and then a cough

“ ___ ___, we are calling to inform you… that he has woken up.” You were frozen in shock, had you not picked up the phone…. You would have separated yourself from him!

“A-Are you serious?!”

“ Yes completely miss.” Dropping the phone, you rushed out to your car and drove to the hospital WELL over the speed limit. Parking in the parking lot, you ran inside as quick as you could and slammed the door to his room open and sure enough there he was. Awake and watching some TV.

“A-Arthur?” you whispered to yourself but he had heard it. He turned his head towards you and a sweet smile spread across his face, but it instantly turned to worry and fear once he got a good look at you.

“ _-____! What the bloody hell happened to you?! DID FRANCE TO THIS?!” tears fell down your face and you ran to him wrapping your arms around his neck and hugging him.

“I was so lonely and lost *hic* without you. P-please don’t ever leave me again!” He had a shocked look on his face but quickly wrapped his arms around your waist and rested his chin atop your head.

“ Love…. How long was I out?”

“… about 19 months” He gasped and his arms tightened around you.

I was so lost without you, I need you to live Arthur. I love you and I couldn’t go on without you….. before I got the call…. I-I… I almost killed myself.” You looked up to him with your dull dead eyes and he instantly pressed his warm lips onto yours. Oh how you missed them! A spark went off inside you, just like what happened in the first kiss. He pulled away and buried his face in your neck.

“ ____, don’t EVER do that again! I couldn't live without you either. I love you so much.”

“ Th-they said they would pull the plug if you didn’t wake up in a month or so. I wanted to be with you, dead or alive.”

“ Even if I did pass away, you shouldn’t do that. If I did, I would have wanted you to live a full life and not die for me. I would have wanted you to get married and have a family where you can be hap-“

“ NO! I could never love anyone else but you! A soul mate only comes once in a life time, and you are mine, no one else. I would rather die then be with anyone but you. I wouldn’t be happy with anyone there to wake up to but YOU. I want no one else, you stole my heart forever and there are no refunds. YOU are what makes me happy, YOU are the one I want to get married to, and YOU are the person I want to start a family with. No one else.” More tears fell down your face and as he kissed you once more, you felt all the sadness you had felt just… disappear.

But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

“… I am so happy to hear you say that love. And I would love to be the father of your children and be your husband.” Your gazes locked, and the light in your eyes came back. They shone with the love for him, the love and happiness that was brought back into your heart and soul.

You suddenly remembered the ring  and held your hand in front of him
“speaking of that, I never took it off, I kept thinking about how when you woke up that we would be together again, and have a wonderful life together.“

“ So you really do want to marry me?” You quickly kissed him and a huge smile was spread across your face. A smile? Why.. you hadn’t smiled  since the accident. You liked it.

“ Of course, nothing would make me happier.” You both leaned into a passionate kiss and from then on everything was perfect. Just perfect