What Hurts the Most - England (part one)

He was your everything. He had half of your heart….. but now….you had no heart. He was gone and took your heart with him. Sure he wasn't dead… but… him being in a coma for a year now…. You… have lost hope. You still visit him every day, but its not the same. You missed the way he would always murmur things into your ear when you two were alone, and the way his soft pink lips felt upon yours. You missed him, and you weren't the same without him. All your friends worried about you. You had become depressed, aloof, and barely ate or drank.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now an then
And just let them out

As you sat on the window sill ledge, you looked out into the rain and your eyes started to water. Memories of your first date flooded your mind.

“Bloody hell!” England yelled as it started to rain. You laughed and raced him to your house.
“Come on! Bet I can beat you~!” you yelled. He smirked and ran after you.

“Not likely love.” As you both ran, you became soaked!.arriving at your front door step you looked back up to England only to meet his emerald green eyes staring into your (e/c) eyes. Slowly leaning closer, your lips met in a kiss filled with love and passion. You wrapped your arms around his neck as he wrapped his around your waist. At that moment you knew he was the one, and he thought the same.

As you came back into reality, your face felt wet. You wiped your tears away with your sleeve. Looking up to the clouds you closed your baggy and blood shot eyes.
“Please, let him come back soon.  I miss him so much pl *hic*ease. PLEASE!” you finally broke down in sobs and pulled your knees up to your chest and burying your face into them.

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

“ ______?” a male voice said. ARTHUR?! You thought. As the male stepped in your heart dropped to see it was only Alfred your best friend. As he saw you his face filled with worry. He was your best friend yes, but he had to go to the military for about 7 months or something like that. “_-____!?” You looked into his blue eyes with your dull, bloodshot, and dead ones.

“Y-Yes?”

“He still hasn't woken up?” you looked down at your hands and shook your head. He hugged you and you broke down sobbing into his jacket. He patted your back and was getting teary eyed himself, Arthur after all did raise him and was like a brother to him. Plus seeing you in this state scared and worried him. ”When was the last time you went outside?”  you thought, and thought, but you couldn't remember. People had always called and came to your house, but after about a month or so of not answering, you figured they just gave up.
“I see…. Would you like to visit him?” nodding your head shakily yes he let go of you and you slowly stood up following him to his car.
*at hospital*

You stepped out of the car, and images of the accident flashed through your mind

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away

“Hello is this ___ ___? We are sorry to tell you that Arthur Kirkland has been in a severe car crash and he is being rushed to the hospital right now” Your eyes widened and fear filled your mind. Quickly rushing to get your keys you drove quickly to the hospital. As you pulled up in the parking lot and ran into the hospital, you saw him. Bloody, pale, and a mess. Nurses rushed him into a room and you were right behind them. Once in the room you held his hand and kept saying ‘ it will be alright’ his eyes looked into yours, just like that time in the rain.

“_____, if I don’t make it I want you to know something.”

“d-d-don’t s-say that. You are going to make it.”

“In case I don’t, I want you to know that I love you with all my heart and that you are my everything. Can you get the box out of my coat pocket?” Nodding you went over to his jacket, pulled out a little box, and handed it to him. Opening it, you saw it was a diamond ring with ‘Arthur x _____’ engraved in the band. “I love you, will you marry me?” your eyes watered and you squeezed his hand.

“Of course I will.” He smiled and slipped the ring on to your finger. You kissed him and shared one last gaze into each other’s eyes. His eye lids started to drop and his heart rate spiked. “ H-HELP!” you screamed and doctors and nurses flooded the room. After he was stabilized, a nurse came out and sat down next to you.

“ I’m so sorry but..” no.. HE CAN”T BE! “ Mr. Kirkland has gone into a coma…. And we don’t know when he’ll wake up. It could be a week, or it could be a year, but we promise to tell you as soon as he does.” You looked down at your feet and nodded.


And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

Shaking your head at the memories you followed Alfred into the building. You walked to his room and stepped inside. You saw him and quickly took a chair next to his bed. Taking his hand into your own you squeezed it and kissed it. After whispering a few things to himself, Alfred left you alone with Arthur.

“ L-Listen Arthur.. please come back. I miss you so much, and I can barely live without you.” You held up your hand with the ring on your finger. “ I never took it off. I need you please. We are going to live happily and have a family. I know we will. Your going to wake up and everything will be fine again ok?”

But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

You looked to him, just hoping, hoping he could hear you. Hoping that you could feel him hold you in his arms and hear him say ‘I love you’ again. But nothing. Tears fell down your face and you rested your head in your hands.
“ please wake up, please. I can’t live without you.”

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do